Dear Karma,

148244_20130918_164325_tumblr_mje5i0r02U1rzkceno1_500I don’t need to ask you how you are doing. Witnessing things around me, I know you are having a ball of a time! We need to talk.

We are in December 2015! Yes, the year is ending already. You were more rotten this year than the stinky cheese that’s forgotten in my fridge! Why is everyone else’s life perfect! At least, Facebook says so. From getting the flawless candid profile picture in 2347th take, with a scenic background (of course, of another country) to eating that picture-perfect blueberry cheesecake, everyone seems to have everything. While I am stuck here gulping my own version of cheesecake: low-end-cheese-slice-sandwiched-between-brownies. True story.

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Unfortunately, the cheese slice between brownies is true. Sigh.

Well, this is what Karma has come down to. Karma is one of the more popular words used today, and more so for vengeance! People mostly use it in terms of cosmic payback! On any other day I don’t believe in God, or supernatural power or anything like that, but if you mistreat me, universe will pay you back! Wow.

Instant money, instant noodles, instant information has spoilt us, and has made us impatient. Hence, we want everything instantly! If you give someone five sweaters this winter, by general logic, you must also get five sweaters back! Do you see the flaw in this? It rather is if you help someone in “their” need, you will receive help in “your” need. And these two needs can be completely different. Having said that, if you help someone with the intention of increasing your Karmic account, you have lost the trail!

A very common way of giving solace to a person in anger or any other extreme emotion is- Karma will do its work. But Karma IS work! Karma means action.

“Sow a thought, reap an action; sow an action, reap a habit; sow a habit, reap a character; sow a character, reap a destiny.”

This view of karma makes a lot of sense to me. It isn’t about payback, or evening scores. Rather it sings out of the mystery of interconnectedness, about choices, and consequences in a way that seems true.

Each thought, each action, is something like a brick in the edifice that we think of as ourselves. And out of each thought and actions something is built. And a lot of it by our own hand. But, it doesn’t lead to fortune or poverty. It is more fundamental.

Action. Habit. Character. Destiny.

So, if I do something, whatever that something is, it is unlikely it will lead to a simple reaction or response. The universe is too big, and too many things are going on at the same time. Very few things, particularly in our human lives, can be traced to a single action. So, that thought, that action, to shift the metaphor, is a thread we add to the weaving of our lives.

By itself, not so much. But then add another thread, and then another, each woven into the great fabric, it begins to matter a lot. Perhaps even for everything.

Rather more important, I think, than dreams of just deserts.

What Freedom Means To Me

I spent a whole hour yesterday trying to “google” the words freedom and independence. And lo! There is a long list of various meanings and connotations that these words have. Of course, the meaning and implication of these words is very subjective, and depends largely on the context it is used in, but personally have we ever tried to define it for ourselves? We read about freedom, dream about freedom, rejoice and celebrate it, even advocate it, but do we really know what freedom is?

What does freedom look like? Is it the voter’s ballot, or permission for a late-night party? Is it to be free from any debt or a person walking out of prison? We must know what freedom means to us, if we are seeking it every single moment!

We often confuse the word freedom with independence. Independence, in no way, means freedom. And freedom is not dependent on independence. Since the time we have come on this planet, we are all inter-dependent on each other for our well-being. It is practically impossible to do everything ourselves, at work or at home.

The first time I thought I was “free” was back in Junior college- a decade ago! I had my vehicle, could meet my friends whenever I wanted, and could sometimes bunk classes as well! This started to look so immature when I shifted to Mumbai for my undergrad. That is when I thought I was really, in true sense, free! No permissions, no deadlines, and my own ATM card! Also, the pride of living “independently” was unparalleled. The feeling when I earned my first ever salary was supremely incomparable. When I look back now, I wonder whom was I kidding?

I have realized that the trick is find freedom in our thoughts, while ‘life’ is happening around us. Right this moment.

We often feel trapped – sometimes by destiny or circumstances, other times by some external force or our own mistakes. In most situations, we react in an auto-pilot mode. We are not even aware that we are letting our mind make a choice at that instant, besides ultimately blaming others or situations for our misery!

Freedom, for me, is being able to choose my thoughts and actions as a response to any situation thrown at me, without getting influenced by external negativity or my internal conflict! Freedom is a state of mind. We ourselves are responsible for our freedom. No body forces us to think in one way or the other; nobody can get into our mind except ourselves.

Freedom begins with us. Our actions. Our decisions. Our choice.

On this Independence Day, let us free ourselves of our past actions, bad memories, fears, conflicts, old patterns of thinking and behaving, and let go of everything that is trapped within us or has trapped us. Why should we stay in prison when the door is wide open?

Freedom is just a thought away. Let us create the thought today!

(This is my column in Deshdoot Times, Nashik – 15 Aug, 2015)